buffering.

i think it's the prospect of leaving my comfort zone. the fact that i may actually (and FINALLY) be graduating.

it may not look like it. BUT I AM SCARED.

so, i jog. err.. rather, i walk.

i've been WALKING for three days straight. (freakin' fourth day today!)

or, as i've been telling my youngest sister: I just want to look thin / nice / "sexy" for the 17th. you know, for the graduation pictures.

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the last time i consciously thought of loosing weight was last october, in preparation for my sister's wedding. obviously, it failed.

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btw, as this is my personal blog ( my friend dean implies my posts are not smart nor intellectual), here are some pictures from our thesis wrap-up party last March 25: (photo credits: lloyd fontilla, jam macabeo and mark telan)

with Mark,
my runner and one of those who willingly shared his thesis time with me:

with my "batch mate" chamcham (she's aiming for the "02" sign):

sitting and having fun at the "delayed" table:

(L-R: Mark, Hazel, Me, Cham and Norman)

this time we're joined by Nikko: 

(and yes, we're just posing with the drinks. ;p)

playing with the kids:

(norman made me do this!!!) 

and more wholesome pictures all-around:

 (most of them taken minutes before leaving the party)

a picture with TEAM AIT:

with Arch. / Sir Alex:

(L-R: Jam, Cham, Aldrin, Me, Sir Alex, Hazel)

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more narcissism:

i was browsing through my pictures over the years, and i was SHOCKED to discover that i seem to have a "patented pose". see for yourself:

(L-R: October 2010, April 2009, March 2006)

 (L-R: Feb 2008, Mar 2011)

other than the obvious sign that i did gained weight, it looks like i have to learn some alternative poses.hehe.

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let me just say i'll miss this guy, if i do succumb to the idea that i'd work in the province until i'm ready for the boards. =)

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random bonding pictures from our March 13 "get together" and Mama Mia's treat:

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THESIS. GRADUATION. BOYFRIEND.

Okay, maybe i'm just afraid of the "boyfriend" part.

plans.

thesis life is definitely taking its toll on me.

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forgive the vanity. =)

this is a picture of me the week after ate loy's wedding... when i singlehandedly outlived the first semester.  

i sported four huge pimples! 

(which, in my theory, represents the four architectural subjects i took last semester.)

just thinking of how i can go through the next months is enough to make me lose my appetite. haha. 

(but i do eat EVERYTIME i work on my thesis. it's my way of bribing myself.)

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whenever thesis work enter my mind, i suddenly feel a rush of energy and i get to accomplish a LOT of OTHER things.
(yes kids, our generation has a term for it. it's called "PROCRASTINATION".)

like today, when i was wondering how i can translate my newly conceived architectural concept (because, as my thesis adviser said, i need to 'make sabog' pa.) --- i suddenly felt the urge to laundry my undies and clean all my shoes.

(actually just one pair of sneakers, one pair of running shoes, two flip-flops and 1 rain shoe. i can't stand dirty footwear so i really make sure they are clean everytime i wear them.)

i was planning on eating outside in time for dinner. (plus, i need to buy some basic stuff. cotton for my facial toner, bread for the weekend.)

then when i checked my bag from last night, i was surprised to see a cheeseburger from McDo. i am not one to ditch perfectly good food so i ended up eating it along with my stock of pineapple juice.

i only have barely two weeks to finish up all my architectural plans. (one week, if i want to refrain from being stressed over printing.)

i wanted to go home over the weekend, but  i can't. i need to tie myself here at home, focus all i can and get down to business.

so, here's me. PLANNING.

i need a gameplan and i need it now!

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i met up with two of my good friends from work last night. i had a blast. ^_^

before our 'reunion', i have to spend some time in fully booked first. 

(just because the smell of books make me happy.)

while waiting for mia, dean and i had dinner at TOSH (located at sm annex).

i had my usual favorite: carbonara. =)

the three of us watched a movie together. (the movie isn't even worth mentioning. hahahaha.)

and then we stayed at padi's point (in skygarden) for a while. 

before parting our ways, we took a couple more pictures (more pictures on my facebook):

i do need some random quality time with friends. 

now, i feel like i am ready to face my thesis again.

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wait. i want cibola's carbonara for dinner. 

random social life.

there's a set of pictures i posted on my facebook page with the label "random social life". it wasn't random, not really. but it is a collection of pictures from where i used to work before. those pictures are proof of what my "social life" has been from november 3 to january 18. =)

there's that ongoing belief that you can't find real friends at work. so maybe i should consider myself lucky for the people i've met from there have been a welcome addition to my non-existent social life. i have mia, whom i fondly call my mama mia. and my dear mary, who's still part of that company. there's S and em and kuya bong and chao. and rae and michelle and kyle. for mark, alvin, van, jhang, stresh, red and wenn. it's been a fun ride. wish my wavemates knew how much the experience meant to me.

i have to mention someone separately. and that's dean. my ever reliable buddy. i think i may have found another bestfriend, from work.

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i've been bumming around for the past two weeks now. after my uncle's death, and my decision to put an end to what i referred to as my "call center adventure"--- i now have a whole LOT of time in my hands.

and unlike my pathetic existence (of around this same time last year), i have been enjoying this relative freeeeeeeeeee schedule. i've been catching up with friends nonstop. i'm lovin' it! =)

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i have this theory that maybe, just maybe, i am trying to use this active social life to forget about the fact that i am missing my tito tim so much.

hmm.