yes please, hand me more cheese.

in less than four hours i'd be meeting up with my long lost grade school friend, Kristine Joy Dacanay. and believe me when i say she's my long lost friend. we haven't seen each other for probably about sixteen years.

so yes, i am super excited. i am never the one with a social life but meeting up with "real life" friends are always fun.

we've decided to meet by two in the afternoon at trinoma. i texted her this evening asking for her "coffee-shop-of-choice". she said i'm the boss and she'll be fine anywhere. hahaha. goodluck sa mapipili naming coffee shop bukas. we have sixteen years' worth of stories to share. =)

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i just added celine valconcha as my new friend in facebook. she's that super sweet and uber charming "adopted" pamangkin of my late tito tim. i just finished viewing the pics from tito tim's wake.. and i miss him. still no tears, but i do miss him. i know he's in a better place now, and he won't be forgotten here.

celine with tito tim's "favorite things". grabbed this photo from her fb photo album, hehe. (hello celine!)

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i think i haven't been the "best" roomate lately. i wish my roomates, keith and hazel still wants me around for the next months. we're all gearing up to face THE thesis life by june, so help us God. haha. i am still pining positively about the future. i still am. and i'd be more than happy to have my two arki roomates with me.

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i had a relatively long and qualitative chat with my mareng sarah just before taking my "noodle break" tonight. we exchanged the usual "kumustas". nothing compares to this feeling.. knowing that real friends are just one text/chat/email/call away. =)

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something great's boiling for february... ha-hum... cherry anne dela torre's getting what? hahaha. we're waiting. =)

let's follow the evidence.

i know i've come around too late. i've been fan of the show eversince, but it's not until i had "re-instituted" my laziness  that i had the chance of personally connecting with all the characters.

i've always loved watching anything related to crime scene investigations. the detective work. the detail finding. the story telling. that's why i've been drawn to the anime detective conan. and of course, the famous sherlock holmes. obviously, there's no reason for me not to love csi. i've always known i'll be addicted to it, so for the past ten seasons, i've restrained myself--- taking care not to get too close, making the conscious effort not to watch too much.

but then again, i resigned from work. so this is me, drooling over the never failing and intriguing csi stories.

and yes, having those gorgeous men doesn't hurt either.

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My top three detectives from two cities will be"

CSI NY Detective Third Grade Danny Messer played by Carmine Giovinazzo.

 

first image taken from here and the second one taken from here.

CSI Miami Level 1 Detective Jesse Cardoza (Eddie Cibrian):

 

this photo taken from here.

and Eddie Cahill as NYPD Homicide Detective First Grade Donald "Don" Flack, Jr. Took the photo from this.

 

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Cahill reminds me of Officer Kelvin Nelson (David Sutcliffe) of Private Practice. His image (below) taken from this site.

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Is it even legal to have detectives strut their hotness like this? Kamon.

oatmeal addiction.

what follows are the results of fun, fun, fun quizzes from one of my most favorite website. just like those addicting facebook quizzes, i am very much aware that they are pointless, and that they are not in any way indicative of who i am as a person.. but i enjoy taking them anyway.

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Created by Oatmeal

less than 30seconds. aha, the dino is pretty slow. =)
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hmmm... thing is, i am miles away from my family. will this apply to my roomates too? hahaha. but i have my family in mind while answering the quiz. maybe i should retake it. lol.
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multiply that by two, since i have to cellphones. yay.

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stefan salvatorre can bite me, anytime. =p ay vampire pala sya, hindi zombie. then, i'd just have to make sure all my plant warriors are ready to protect me. hahaha.

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and yes, it gets gross-ier.


Created by Oatmeal

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i was supposed to report about the fact that i had dinner at banana leaf-greenbelt with tito father and ate loy. and that i was able to submit my resignation letter to my pseudo part-time company. went home around 3am, don't ask me why.

and i still have a whole lot of unfinished business... i'm calling it a day for now. =)

halleluia oatmeal, for taking my mind off things. one more csi: new york ep, then i can sleep.

snapping out.

"According to Elizabeth Kubler Ross, when we are dying, or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through 5 distinct stages of grief. We go into denial, because the loss is so unthinkable; we can’t imagine it’s true. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves; then we bargain. We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have; we offer up our souls in exchange for just one more day.When the bargaining has failed, and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression; despair; until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can. We let go; we let go and move into acceptance." — Grey’s Anatomy

i posted an edited version of that quote on my fb page (i didn't know there's a certain character limit for your "shoutouts") because i am wondering why i still haven't shed a single tear for my uncle's death. i was there at the hospital (in cardinal santos) when the doctors made that "time of death" proclamation. i was even there the morning after he was admitted to the icu.

i was working my ass half of that week, and even in his death, he has maintained being the bossy type--- what happened to him became my wake-up call. i'm calling off my call center adventure.

i have been so used in seeing tito tim randomly. i probably am still on a phase wherein i feel that i can always text him, out of nowhere, updating him about what's currently happening in my life. at the back of my head, he's just one mrt ride away, waiting in his cityland unit. that i can always ambush him into letting me stay all night in his office unit on the second floor, consuming his office supplies without limit. but he's gone now, and i am still on phase one.


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i am snapping out of this.

a lot of things can happen in one blink. all i need is to grant myself the will to make it.

tito tim is gone, so is my pseudo part-time job.

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technically, this is my first "free" day day since november third. i was finally able to bring dell to a friend in kamuning (thank you kuya onad!), and he'll be all bright and shiny by weekend. good thing my ever lovely ate loy left this maroon sony laptop her for a week (this is, by the way, tito tim's laptop), i still can catch up with everything i missed for the past two months.

so i left myself online all the time. you can see me online in ym, in gmail, i am even leaving myself online in fb. (things i never do, i don't really like chatting up people online.) i am literally asking long lost friends to talk to me. i was able to catch up on the latest episodes of the big bang theory, grey's anatomy and private practice. i have the sixth season of csi: new york waiting for me to finish.

i have to rewrite those structural notes for the only subject i enrolled for this semester.

i really do need to snap out of this. and i will.

as what my first fb update (immediately after tito tim's "burial") says: i am now resuming THE normal life. aaaaaaah, i can now sleep at night.